"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly..."
I have experienced do overs many times in my life. I am a Work in Progress, after all. Every phase on our journey through life takes us down another path of lessons and rewards, joys and heartaches, experiences and opportunities to gain wisdom.
I have been blessed with an open mind and a craving to learn (or unlearn as the case may be). An unquenchable thirst for knowledge and growth drives me every day. I thrive in chaos and change, and I rise to challenges even when I am sure I just can't take anymore.
Thankfully the last year of growth and change has not been too difficult. By past standards, this year has been rather easy. For all of the issues to resolve, and work to be done, has come from within. It was not so much my external circumstances pivoting me in a new direction on a regular basis, but rather my internal experiences that were a catalyst for this latest season of growth and transformation.
I have struggled with self-imposed limits and false beliefs. I have released my need to be right and fix everyone else, and instead decided to be right for ME, thus working on myself. I have struggled once again with mild depression, anxiety, and people pleasing as new situations and people in my life have shown me what has yet to be resolved and released once and for all. Some of these passed quickly, while others are still fresh and lingering.
Regardless, I have reclaimed my power over my own life and I have chosen people and circumstances that are a better fit to this leg of my process and change.
I stopped meeting everyone else's need for me to be what was best for them and I found out the needs that I was not meeting for my own good. I struggled with the pain of growing apart from people, places, and things that had served me well in the past. I met new people, trusted in new processes, explored new beliefs and new ways of thinking and being. I am still there, in fact, as every day is showing me this transitioning is not yet finished.
Thankfully I have reached the stage of excitement and anticipation for what is ahead. The burnout and frustration and feelings of loss have been replaced by an eager enthusiasm for the possibilities before me! The world is changing every day! But so am I...
And this process of Remembering once again WHO I AM is blessing me every day.
Thank you for joining me on this journey! I have no idea where we are going from here... but if the past has taught me anything- it's going to be a WILD RIDE!! 😊
